When your baby dies, you lose the opportunity to announce his/her arrival to the world with joy. Your announcement has heartbreak & this immeasurable sadness woven throughout it. It isn’t fair. You want more than anything to share pictures of your baby but will your friends & family want to see them? Looking back, I would have done my birth announcement differently. I would have been proud because this is my son, my firstborn! He deserved a better introduction.
I have many pictures of Kanaan that I have not shared publicly because I’m scared of other people’s reactions. I have received amazing responses to his pictures that I have shared but he just looked like he was sleeping…or they were pictures of his feet or hands. They were heavily filtered as well. No one told me I had to do that but I felt like it would make it easier for other people to accept my son. I wanted him to be seen because to me, he was perfect! He is perfect.
I want to share, in this space, my son in all of his beauty.
Kanaan Allen Mahlmeister
lived & died on
November 10, 2019 at 8:25am
weight: 1lb 6oz
length: 10 1/2 inches
Looking back, I would have done my birth announcement differently…
Kanaan's Promise 